Monday, October 13, 2008

It's not about the marathon....

It is not about the marathon. I think this is what I have learned from this journey. It is the journey of getting to the marathon that really counts. It is the 600+ miles that lead up to the final 26.2. It is getting up each day and doing what it takes each day working your way up to the goal of 26.2 miles. For me it was running a few minutes at a time, in order to run my first mile. I haven’t been an athlete. I couldn’t run a mile when I started this journey with out stopping. My journey began with me wanting to do something bigger then myself. The thought of me running a marathon was overwhelming when I first began. I am a wife, a mom, a step-mom, I work part time time, how would I do this? I got a plan, and started working everyday on my goal of running a marathon. I feel like if I can do this, you can do this too. I started this for someone else, I started this to honor my friend who passed away last year at the age of 30. I started this because we had talked about running a full marathon together. I wanted to honor her, by finishing the marathon. In the beginning stages of this journey I really doubted myself, how could I do this, I couldn’t run with out stopping to walk? I wasn’t skinny enough, I wasn’t strong enough, all these doubts were in my head. Then I changed the way I thought about myself. I could do this, I was putting in the time, and I was putting in the energy and training, and I could and I would finish this marathon.

Today after the marathon, I am feeling more confident than ever, I did what a lot of people don’t dare to even start. I believe that starting the journey is the important part, getting out there and doing something you are not sure you can do. I have found inner strength though this process. Sure I am very proud of myself, I think I have great reason to be. But I am also very thankful that I made it through this process injury free. I recently saw the video of myself towards the finish line, I immediately started to tear into myself, about the way I looked. I had to stop myself , and redirect my thinking, I finished a marathon in this body. I may have some extra “lady lumps” but that is what makes me, well me!
I have used what I have ~ this body right now ~ and done something extraordinary! I am an athlete.

I started out this journey to honor my friend, I did that! In the process I found out who I am. Who am I ? I am stronger than I give my self credit for both inside and out. I am able to look at any obstacle, not with fear, but with wisdom and insight. I am able to dig deep no matter the circumstance and know I will make it through stronger than ever.

Thank you all for coming on this journey with me!

8 comments:

Wes said...

Oh Em! You are awesome. You do us all proud. I am so positive that your friend is so proud of you as well. Your attitude is spot on. This is just the beginning of something wonderful for you.

You are an athlete, a runner, a marathoner. R-O-C-K O-N!!! :-)

Iron "GeekGirl" Misty said...

Beach2Battleship has an half iron. This could be your next frontier, if you haven't done one already. You can swim 2000 meters, right? You can bike 56 miles, right? You can run a half marathon? C'mons!

Marcy said...

A most excellent post! You ARE an athlete! NO DOUBT!! ;D ;D

Al's CL Reviews said...

Athlete!

That is you!

cindy said...

Very well said, Em, and beautiful :-)

It is about the journey, and remembering that has helped calm my nerves lately at races. The race isn't the important part at all. Thanks for the reminder!

Eileen Swanson said...

Wow, very cool! Congrats!!

E

Lisa Slow-n-Steady said...

You = Athlete

Viv said...

Great pictures...way to say it! I am almost thinking about a marathon.